1. |
angel
03:22
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I watch you play god
Tell me, is something wrong
Is the body you are given not enough control?
Have you seen it all
Have you lost yourself
Go ahead, please excuse yourself
After all
You were just to create god itself
And let it suffer through a thousand hells
In a steel shell
In your crushing claw
Do you blame yourself
For the living hell
For your human god
The perfect flaw
Of carbon perfection
The clay is synthetic
The ribbon; the double helix of bone
Ascending the physical, mental and digital
The body left crooked and skewed
A scarlett reflection
Looks desperate for vengeance
On the butcher that started it all
The heart is a weapon
And i will protect it
I will protect you
Like pietà
I will protect you
Sarò il tuo angelo
But i know that i will fail you
I’ll be
Your angel
Forever
Forever
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2. |
breach
07:33
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I am cold
I am scared
i’m alone
i'm the scientist
I’m a stone
I am cold
I am cold
I am cold
I am cold
I am scared
I’m alone
I'm the scientist
I am stone
I am cold
I'm the punisher
I'm a dying man
The chain began to tighten
And the spirit starts division
And i am left so cold
Don’t say another word
You will stay out of sight in the lake of my heart
Forever.
Try to come up for air but the flood is everywhere
Don’t make another sound
I’m the breach in your heart, i'm the stranger you always knew
With my circular saw ill saw the two of us in two
In the red sphere of the lifeless security camera
We are bound by few, splitting threads
And pulled apart-
Like crashing cars,
On bleeding ice,
Inside our heart.
Automaton
Are you still there?
You loved life once,
What went so wrong?
And if i stopped
This hurt i’ve caused
Would i regain
The light i lost
I’m pulled apart-
Like crashing cars;
On bleeding ice-
The jaws of life
Can’t save a thing
Automaton
All is lost
The light is gone
And pulled apart-
Like crashing cars
Can’t bear to watch
Just kill the heart
With arms outstretched
Towards the sky
God gave us hands
To hold the knife
Just pull apart
The crashing cars
The punisher
This dying man
Automaton
With slipping palms
And heels dug un-
Til they are ground
[And the scientist killed everything that made him alive
In his pursuit of god.
The birth of my heart.]
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3. |
the storm
07:23
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I hear a bell chime one hundred times
Against the patchwork of the aniline sky
The wind just blows like heavens on fire
The light returning life after life
This is the part that kills me the most,
Where every time im pulled off the boat,
Where every time we finally get close
The pulling anchor wont let me die
The tethered spirit won't let you live-
Forever separate from the world that you’re in
Separating ghosts in the cold
Our arms are broken each time we hold
I only wish to sink in this quiet
My efforts are extinguished each time
And just before the hundredth bell chimes
Im torn out of death and back into life
The morning came, the bell tower chimed
The windy grass was so far from sight
This cold pink shell has given me light
The punisher has given me life
The angel whispers one last goodbye
With fragile, blue, translucent hands tied
A shining cruelty sits in his eyes
And patiently he raises the knife
With pale hands the scalpel reclines
And pulls apart the membrane divide
The scientist, the c sectioned christ
The storm pries open pandora's eye
Just fucking exorcize me, i want to be cold
Your turning arms, they just couldn’t hold,
The fleeting words you know that I stole:
Are all i left for you on the shore
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4. |
déjà vu restoring
04:32
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The familiar compound bubbling
Is a resonance of sheer tension before desperate morning
My immediate environment is otherworldly
The authoritative siren and hiss of machinery
The scream of heat lamps like daylight deceiving
Cellular flesh stretching from growth,
To growing laboratory death fodder bellowing below me
The blood
The blood orange shine is deja vu restoring into memory like citrus pulp of the orange glowing
Abhorrent.
Please don’t let the horny morning light in.
And the night becomes a chicken fight of clockwork between every tick
Abhorrent.
The coming of morning bears sin-
When the finger of burning roaring pushes nail to skin
When the doctor comes in
Conditioning begins
The motors desperate for any organism within the span of its existence
Blades of my mechanical crucifix; a bug's life, and torn into pieces
The vacuum detects movement in seconds
The vacuum is perpetual motion; the lenia’s defective
The swell of shag carpet pulled up from the ground up.
The world opens up and my body stretched apart in the dyson
I felt every tendon in tension
Like a biological train grinds to halt on your bare flesh
Like a silver pendulum resurrects before the next breath
Like sun sets and the moon is birthed in a crescent stretch
My prison repeats again-
From utero,
From incubation plexitube
I am born again
The motors desperate neurons recall our every moment infected,
Crawl of my mechanical crucifix
A momentary lapse of unhuman creation
Unsignificant, unbearable, unrecognizable
The body left unverifiable
And that damn silhouette holding the vacuum could not even see me,
Will not blink twice when my body’s beneath he
And i’m reborn
Restarting the lenia
Restarting the meltdown
I have always felt that low buzz of sentience
Of cognition
Every nerve has fired successively
I do feel great feeling…
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5. |
the sun
05:31
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… And great feeling was the loneliness i soon grew accustomed to
But to tell the truth
It was never once something i got used to
The flesh suit made bullet proof
Between december and june
A terrarium lie constant
In spring, nothing blooms
Nothing grew.
Just a room
Just a room
Sunlight bled,
Through moonlight, cracked
Just a room
Just a room
Lights dim red
To keep heat in
18 degrees celsius
Then you were there
Across the room
Cold and thin
Maybe content
Maybe content
Maybe a friend
Maybe someone i could pretend to protect
But by the end
It looked nothing like protection
You just stand there in acceptance of everything that just happened
You breathe out and breathe in
I see you smile, a ghostly smile
Like you don’t know what’s happening to you
But i think you know exactly what is wrong
I think you’ve known this terror all along
I think, i think you’re strong
You set me free when i’m perforated in place
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6. |
the spear
08:24
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I left the lighthouse in the morning
And reached the arctic by the evening
I was lost in a flood, run red with your blood
And the sun never sets it just circles the sea
It's been eight days since you’ve died
I don’t remember what you look like
[god sinks it’s dirty eye down from the sky on me]
So with breaking hands I trace your deepfake in the snow
Falling and falling and falling and falling
And
Failing and failing and failing and failing
And
Falling and failing and failing and falling
And
Failing and failing and failing and failing
I’m flailing and sobbing, a-turning and choking
Hopeless and tired and grieving and losing
Looking for something, something alive
Looking for something, I wish I was like you
The red sky has eyes for every time that you’ve died
If only god could save me now
For the translucent moon is falling down
For the oceans dead and quiet and red
For the wind no longer blows and the night won't end
The scientist winding his rubber band arms
And I was used as the spear
So I twirled, and I twirled deep into your heart
As you sat on the cross, like a deer
And god, you, remain helpless with your arms up in heaven
As the deer is rendered to blood
God why wont you look at me
The failure, the imprisoning
Is there a single flooding wound you could stop
Falling and falling and falling and falling
And
Failing and failing and failing and failing
And
Falling and failing and failing and falling
And
Failing and failing and failing and failing
Falling and falling and falling and falling
And
Failing and failing and failing and failing
And
Falling and failing and failing and falling
And
Failing and failing and failing and failing
Well the road is dark
And my legs won’t work
And the the drivers tired
And the fire is submerged
So if you were the tunnel
I was the funnel
I was the funnel
I am the funnel
It’s all my fault
I just want to run
But my legs won’t work
I will scorch the earth
I wish I was like you
It shouldn’t have been you
I wish god would kill me
I’m alive and I’m squirming
I wish I was like you,
I wish I was like you,
His hands held you lifeless
I couldn’t be strong like carlos
I couldn’t be strong like Klara
I am still in the arctic
But I think its time I go home
before my departure
I left an angel in the snow
The daybreak was gorgeous
And a new day turns over
The grieving is torture
The light won’t go out but the worst isn’t over
To be very clear.
To make it fundamentally understood-
He didn’t spare you.
The suffocating, cranking hands were a turning lever
And he didn’t spare you.
In the flash fire of grief-
In the storm of rubbing alcohol
The melting body gave out
But i swear
Somewhere
There were soft ribbons of memory
And a light.
But to be very clear.
To make it absolutely understood-
He didn’t spare you
And he wouldn’t spare me
And he scoops me up
And placed me inside the computer
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7. |
cellular
05:05
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Pale portraits of sky overlaps and overlaps and overlaps
Telephone pole wire stretched so thin over its belly
Quadrupedal steel robot automobiles
And a breaking city sky
I sit and watch from across the lake
Ever-watching the ever-evolving city scape
The lenia’s gone exponential
Inside the personal computer
I am soldered in
I am cauterized skin to the motherboard;
My green circuit conjoined twin
And i can see everything
I see every advert, i watch every tragedy
I caught every trend, never late, never early
I am every photo of your father, your daughter
I am every pop up, i’m christ resurrected,
I see through your doorbell, im your closed circuit jesus
Slipping the clippers, the flooding, the seering
The hurting, the pulling, the pushing, the violence,
The clawing, the clawing and never once surface
Operator, can you hear me
Can you feel me, im unhappy
I feel malicious, i feel sickened,
I’ve become john horton conway, i’ve become the mathematician
someone strip me of this cognizants
I’m weaving a web and the weaving is torture,
The seeing is torture, it won’t end till it’s over
My brain has been raped and my body is useless
I’m a chemical chain that is functioned to suffer
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8. |
carousel
06:36
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Someone
Built a statue
Behind the mirror
But the more i think,
The more it changes
And i am shapeless
Pushing backwards
In a pool of water
Pushing downwards
Glimpsing
Oh, everyone i’ve made a grave mistake
If i could just wash away
Underneath the wake
My carousel,
Like a whirly bug
My protective shell
Beneath the ground
Where it’s nice and safe
I make the same mistakes
Time and time again
I evade the blame
Like the scientist
I would split in two
And i start to look
Just like the statue
So i make my way
To the mirrors gates
And the lock would break
In my fingertips
It’s all too much
Oh yeah its the wild wild west
Oh yeah.
Keep your spurs on your feet and your knife in your hand.
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9. |
worlds fair
08:58
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A scarlet reflection
Of vengeance, refracted
The ribbon awakens the animus
Rotate through the ceiling
Amalgamate of protein
And steel, gears lift the god thing up
Dislocating and humanoid
Christ pterodactyloid
The opera is nearing an end
Like clockwork it sets in
Deja vu connecting
The prisoner will leave the sky red
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10. |
new day, new light
08:39
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Somebody gave me
A body to water
The mother the father
A soft light through curtains
The glowing red ember
December, the tether
Black tea, and oranges
A gorgeous contortion
A lover to fail
A failure to heal
A healer to care for
A sailor to wait for
I wish I was like you
You touch me. I love you
The body is failing
Im afraid I’ll be leaving
Somebody teach me
To hold it so sweetly
The hard parts are scary
The nice parts aren’t scary
Somebody left me
A phantom to shield me
A memory to kill for
A shore I can claw towards
I am warm
I am warm
I am cold
I am warm
Im the prisoner
Im in love with you
Im a dying man
We will meet again
My strangest friend
Cowboy
I will always love you
Car crash
Day break
Channels open
Yellow silver
The moon is cracking
Above us
Around you
The sky is breaking
I see you
Smiling
With eyes wide open
And water swelling
Across some ocean
Of algae
And shellfish
Collapsing tear ducts with
Lily paddles
And pink swirly whirlpools
The heart is defenceless
I couldn’t protect it
I’ll wish on a star
And give you my wishes
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Cowboy I will always love you
Try again.
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somersault Richmond, British Columbia
i am a carpenter.
i am a lover.
i am a cowboy.
i am a girl.
i am a hopeful romantic.
i am a curator.
i am a shield.
i am a dancer.
i am a prancer.
i am a smooth operator.
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